Use the:-
one.
two.
three.
four. on the right to navigate!
Thanks for visiting and do come back.
I'm here without you
Faiz
RP year 2, environmental science
A complicated person with a big smile =) i suffer from dilemma almost every time, so HAHA
Monday, July 21, 2008
【 6:30 PM 】
This song is stuck in my head for months. Well, maybe that babi Ellen influence me to like it. Well, no credits to her because i let myself fall for this song. Honestly, the lyrics of this song influenced me to listen to it again, again and countless again. These few weeks, i have been listening to what my heart says not what my head says. It is more of mind over matter. Well, i've always put matter over mind, but i'm not going to let it happen again to me and the people around me.
I'm brave enough to open my heart and sincere feelings i had for her and the situation around us. I admit i like you and there will be small feelings for you that is beyond control. At first i thought it is okay, but after long thoughts and confiding into friends, i just felt that it is unsuitable for me to do this shit anymore. I don't want to get my feelings tangled up, and before i know, i've grown fond of you which i prefer not. I told you that things between us won't work out if anything happen but it seems things are different now. I can take the presence, but it feels like how me, G and another guy goes through. Now, it is happening again, and i tell you the very reason why i backed off. I don't want any tensions between you and him. Well, at least i am being fair to myself, i guess or more towards them. At least i am refraining myself from being trap into love that eventually i thought it will work, but in the end, nothing fruitful happen. And yc, that lead to my decision. I know you are upset over this, i am pissed and upset over my decision. I am not trying to imply anything, but i love you as a friend and i hate losing a friend. Sometimes, i wish i didn't get close to you over the month, and maybe this wouldn't happen. Fate brought us together, and i shall not complain about it.
As much as i want to back off, my body can't just pull away from you when i see you around. I don't know if i am playing around with my feelings, but i swear, i can't help but to cuddle you, tickle you, and be mean to you. Sometimes i feel that my heart is going against my body. When i cuddle you, my heart tell me not to, but you're like an old teddy bear, even though it is old, it is still cuddly, and huggable. It is inevitable, but i know i have to reduce the consumption of your cuddle. I love the moments, like how your friend says that i should just be like how i am with you now, and stop backing off. But sorry, i have to stick on my principles. Let see how thing goes on.
"This heart it beats for only you". i wish i have the courage to say these words to you.
